My last couple of posts looked back on 2018. This week’s Food For Thought Friday prompt focuses on the future.
I’ve never really been one for making long term plans as such. My mental health is such that I tend to live very much in the here and now; usually day-to-day, but sometimes it can be hour-to-hour or even, it seems, moment-to-moment. I try not to dwell on the past because there is some fairly major-league shit in there which, having survived, I’d rather not disturb again if I can avoid.
Another side-effect is that I don’t tend to think too far into the future. That isn’t meant to sound melodramatic; I’m not for one moment suggesting that I might do something that would result in my no longer being here, but more that I simply don’t know how my mood is going to be at any given point. It is very difficult to plan for a future event knowing that, by the time the day in question rolls around, you may well be incapable of even leaving the house (or possibly even getting out of bed) than travelling to a distant location for a specific event.
The result of this is that I don’t really have any specific goals for the year ahead, any more than I had goals for the year that has just been. The fact that I am still here, blogging; sharing my thoughts, words and images is an achievement in itself. Perhaps my only real goal for the year, as it is almost every year, is to get through it and emerge at the other end. As someone who is fully self-aware, I realise that this is never a given. None of us are guaranteed a tomorrow, let alone a next week or even a next year, but we live in the assumption that, barring misfortune, we will see the sun set this evening and it come up again tomorrow morning.
As for my blog, I hope to continue; I feel I still have a contribution to make. Again, I realise that this may not always be the case, that for any number of reasons, the desire and ability to share with and participate in the blogging community may cease.
Hopefully circumstances will allow me to meet up with more of my fellow bloggers; be that meeting new people or becoming reacquainted with those I have already met. My work continues to take me around the county so who knows what opportunities will present themselves.
In the meantime, I hope 2019 brings you all that you desire, and that health and happiness are yours to enjoy.